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Jim Sanders's avatar

I certainly understand your search for your history. May I tell a different perspective I found true for me, again, true for me and not suggesting it should or could be true for you and others.

My father was killed in car accident when I was eight. Soon after my mom remarried a younger friend of my father. As I tried to learn more about my father and my heritage I was shut down because it made my mom’s new husband uncomfortable. He was a total disaster.

Finally, after continuing to search I gained a lot of information. I thought I was gaining insight about my father and indirectly about me.

A few years ago I realized that no matter how much information I gathered did not mean I understood his life and his experience. I realized the insight into myself was only gained by looking at my own life and my own experiences.

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Doreen Frances's avatar

I'm glad you were able to discover who your birth father was. My mom was "allowed" to keep me but my "illegitimacy" was a huge secret. I discovered that part when I was 15 but still couldn't get her to talk about it. Her shame about it was huge.

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